Sth happened yesterday. And no matter what people say, it has bothered me a lot. So much so that i'm writing to you at this time of day, or night. Yesterday was our Sunday. We had our normal meetings and I had my usual rush of meetings and other activities that is normally had on a Sunday.
We were having some food after one of our meetings and it was pasta, so u noe a tomato based sauce leaves a very bad stain on white clothes or on anything basically, right? So I was standing at the doorway to a room eating a plate of pasta. Suddenly somebody knocked into me, and my plate as u probably have guessed, went flying. This girl was standing next to me. Luckily for both of us the pasta did not hit any of us but feel splat onto the floor right in the middle of the doorway. Well I should not have said that it did not hit any of us. I was lucky. She had a bit of it on her arm. But her clothes were clean.
What shocked me was that she said "I Hate You" to me. I was very shocked and literally speechless. I said, "I’m sorry". And well what more do you want me to say? Anyway she burst into tears right there and started to drag her bf out and said she wanted to go home. Like it was all my fault. Oh and did I tell you that a lot of other people were there too because of all the various meetings and activities that were going on? As well as some very important people?
The words she said still keep ringing in my mind. Even thought everyone else said that it’s ok that it was just an accident. And that they knew that I did not do it on purpose. But that is the first time someone said such a thing to me and in front of a lot of other people too.
Was it my fault? Do I really deserve to have someone say that to me? Would you have said such a thing if it had happened to you? I don’t know. I’m trying hard to remember what others said that it’s ok and that it’s not my fault. But the words "I Hate You" are very strong words. To me, i’m not sure about you. Such words are not something to be taken or said lightly, in a jest or for fun. But from her, they came out so naturally like she says it all the time to everyone!!!!
And now no matter how hard I try, well...they keep running around in my mind.
What am I going to do?
Too bad I can’t call you to talk on the phone like I could when you were still in sg.
Upset and distressed
We were having some food after one of our meetings and it was pasta, so u noe a tomato based sauce leaves a very bad stain on white clothes or on anything basically, right? So I was standing at the doorway to a room eating a plate of pasta. Suddenly somebody knocked into me, and my plate as u probably have guessed, went flying. This girl was standing next to me. Luckily for both of us the pasta did not hit any of us but feel splat onto the floor right in the middle of the doorway. Well I should not have said that it did not hit any of us. I was lucky. She had a bit of it on her arm. But her clothes were clean.
What shocked me was that she said "I Hate You" to me. I was very shocked and literally speechless. I said, "I’m sorry". And well what more do you want me to say? Anyway she burst into tears right there and started to drag her bf out and said she wanted to go home. Like it was all my fault. Oh and did I tell you that a lot of other people were there too because of all the various meetings and activities that were going on? As well as some very important people?
The words she said still keep ringing in my mind. Even thought everyone else said that it’s ok that it was just an accident. And that they knew that I did not do it on purpose. But that is the first time someone said such a thing to me and in front of a lot of other people too.
Was it my fault? Do I really deserve to have someone say that to me? Would you have said such a thing if it had happened to you? I don’t know. I’m trying hard to remember what others said that it’s ok and that it’s not my fault. But the words "I Hate You" are very strong words. To me, i’m not sure about you. Such words are not something to be taken or said lightly, in a jest or for fun. But from her, they came out so naturally like she says it all the time to everyone!!!!
And now no matter how hard I try, well...they keep running around in my mind.
What am I going to do?
Too bad I can’t call you to talk on the phone like I could when you were still in sg.
Upset and distressed
posted by Schen2 @ 3:47 PM
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