I just had an operation abt a week ago where they took out a huge cyst and my left fallopian tube. Now i am at home stuck in singapore, bored to death, feeling lost, forgotten, depressed and very disappointed with a lot of ppl. A lot of my friends rather. Many of them didn't even bother to call to find out how i was doing after the operation. They all knew what was going on cos an email had been sent out earlier to tell them. But no news. Is this telling me sth? Is it letting me that this is how important i am to them? I am so important that they don't even bother to come visit me? Or at least give me a phonecall?

Yes I know People give me the excuse that they are busy and that they had no time. But come on... How long does a phone call take? 1 hr? If that is the case then you have got your priorties wrong. Even if you jus take 5 mins to call me to find out how i m I would be happy, but less t hem 5 did that. If they are busy then my dad is just as busy, but he still can find time to visit me in the hospital everyday i was there. So why cant others?

I am just very tired of excuses, which is what everyone has... No one is willing to think of others. They are only concerned with themselves and how well they are doing... Everyone else is like jus a sunday friend.

Is that what i am too? Just a sunday friend? Well if that is not the case.. You are going to have to prove it. And visiting me now at such a late date is not going to help.

I feel as if I am different from the normal convntional person. Most people would rather not have people visit them when they are sick but to wait till when they well. But for me, I would rather have ppl visit me when i am sick and shower attention during that time and not wait till i am well and walking around. Cos then i can do things by myself already and do not need help. If you wanna wait till i am well b4 coming over to visit me, then i'd rather go out and meet you for dinner somewhere. Cos i am well.

Some of my friends are coming to my place tmr evening, but to me.., Its too late. i dont need your help anymore cos i can do everything myself. If you had wanted to come and visit me, then you should have come earlier when i needed your help and sympathy. Now, im ok on my own. I dont need your help or ur sympathy anymore. I Am well!!!! ITS TOO LATE to show how much you care. Cos i know just where i am, where i stand as your friend. Which is far far behind everything else!

I was just going through my calendar today and counting the days i have left, and I suddenly realized that i only have 15 days left. 15 days till i leave singapore forever??? Sigh.... I wonder what my life will be like away from my parents living in a place i grew up but this time on my own? Wonder what Hawaii will be like now nearly 15 yrs later? Will I be ok on my own? How will life be? Wonder how my family will be after i leave? Happy probably.... Oh well.... I'm not going to think about it. The more i think the worse it be...