LOST....
Everytime I talk to my friends, I am reminded of what I could have but lost. Everytime i talk to my friends, I am reminded of where i could be right now but am not. Everytime I talk to my friends, I feel more depressed, disheartened, alone, and lost.
Why is it that friends who are supposed to understand you and support you rarely understand what you are going through? They pretend they do and give out advise that has no meaning or bearing to the situation.
It is easy to say something, but to really do it???
You know you are stuck, but to accept it and find a way out... thats hard.
I wish I had a friend who knew when I need a little love and sympathy instead of being right all the time.
Is there no one out there who really understands? Ya everyone has afflictions. But everyone needs love and support during those times of afflictions...
I have often read about people who are sensitive to this, and about people who receive sincere love and empathy from those angels around them.
Then when hard times hit me, I wonder where these angels are....
People have often told me that I am too nice and caring. Mayb they are right... Mayb its time I become a bit more selfish and selfcentered, instead of thinking of those around me. I should start thinking of myself.
After my operation, I had so much to catch up on with my calling and stuff, that i didn't really bother with my own emotional and mental health. I threw myself, my all into whatever needed to be done. It was the only way i could forget the fact that i'm still in Singapore. It was the only way to forget the reasons, i could not leave. Mayb that was the wrong thing to do. After all no one cares about you. They care superficially but not sincerely.... They are all so interested in their own life, problems and so called afflictions that they don't have time for yours.
So then WHY should I care too? So mayb I shouldnt...
From now on, I will not care anymore!!! I am going to be the most selfish person alive!!!!! At least i hope I can be.!!!!!!!!!
No more friendly, kind, caring me!!!!
Why is it that friends who are supposed to understand you and support you rarely understand what you are going through? They pretend they do and give out advise that has no meaning or bearing to the situation.
It is easy to say something, but to really do it???
You know you are stuck, but to accept it and find a way out... thats hard.
I wish I had a friend who knew when I need a little love and sympathy instead of being right all the time.
Is there no one out there who really understands? Ya everyone has afflictions. But everyone needs love and support during those times of afflictions...
I have often read about people who are sensitive to this, and about people who receive sincere love and empathy from those angels around them.
Then when hard times hit me, I wonder where these angels are....
People have often told me that I am too nice and caring. Mayb they are right... Mayb its time I become a bit more selfish and selfcentered, instead of thinking of those around me. I should start thinking of myself.
After my operation, I had so much to catch up on with my calling and stuff, that i didn't really bother with my own emotional and mental health. I threw myself, my all into whatever needed to be done. It was the only way i could forget the fact that i'm still in Singapore. It was the only way to forget the reasons, i could not leave. Mayb that was the wrong thing to do. After all no one cares about you. They care superficially but not sincerely.... They are all so interested in their own life, problems and so called afflictions that they don't have time for yours.
So then WHY should I care too? So mayb I shouldnt...
From now on, I will not care anymore!!! I am going to be the most selfish person alive!!!!! At least i hope I can be.!!!!!!!!!
No more friendly, kind, caring me!!!!
posted by Schen2 @ 4:55 PM
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