What a wonderfull but tiring day Friday was. In the morning we had a picnic at the botanical gardens. I was so surprised that so many people turned up. But then another surprising thing was that no one ate anything. I wonder why they came to the picnic but did not eat anything? Wierd. Anyway, it probably shows that singaporeans never go on picnic's and therefore do not know what to do on a picnic.

What in the world happened to Marina Square??? It is all renovated and has no entrances anymore. Its so hard to find the way in!!! And then when we finally got in, everything was closed, and it was so hard to negotiate the way around... Don't think I would want to go back to Marina Square again for a long long time no matter how nice and new it is!!!!

I'm hurting all over and i have a huge cut on the palm of my hand. I'm so unlucky today. Tripped over the curb fell flat on my face and started bleeding everywhere. Sad... Wonder why singaporeans do not stop to help those who need them? A few people walked by while I was on the ground, but none stopped to help or enquire if i was ok. But then do I stop?
Anyway i hurt all over and I'm half dead. I'm soooo tired but for some reason when i go to sleep, i can't sleep. I have spent 2 nights tossing and turning and each day when i go to work, i'm just so tired that i cant concentrate. Sigh....

I want to sleep, as in really fall asleep not toss around the whole night or doze of every hour.... Wonder if i ever will be able to sleep again without staying up till 2 am in the morning?

Today was mom's birthday. Think my dad forgot it though, haha. My mom had to get her own cake... Sad, but true.

I tried to get a dental appointment at the polyclinic today. The one at Bt Batok but for some reason they do not have any vacancies till june!!! Can u believe that? I have to wait till june to get my teeth checked!!! Oh well.

Oh and i went to cut my hair today too.... For some reason, when it was cut, it became really curly. I do not know why. Do u? So now I have super curly hair, which i did not perm in the first place. I hate curly hair! If its on someone else then it looks good. But when its on me, its bad! Makes my face look bigger, but my mom says its ok so...

ARRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE CURLY HAIR WHEN IT IS ON ME!!!!!!

Sigh, another midnight entry. Anyway, saturday was so cool... I had dinner at Marche with my family cos we wanted to celebrate my mom's bday early. And then i headed down to the Esplanade where they had this really nice outdoor performance. This band was playing jazz and swing, and it was really good. I really enjoyed myself. It seems that they are having a festival this week. Too bad i was alone, it would have been great to have some other people there. Some friends came down for a while but then they left and i was alone again. Not sure who is really interested in the arts and music???

Sunday was good too. We watched a fireside by President Nelson. He is a really funny guy! Too bad some people couldn't make it. I was seriously beat. On the way home, I was wondering how I would be able to make it, because by that time, I was working on auto already.

Monday, I seriously have to start packing my room. It is getting messier and messier. Haha!!!
I am SICK again!!!! Going to die soon... Hope somebody cares about me enough to call to ask how I am... But that will probably never happen.... Wonder what has happened to the caring friendship in this world we have come to? Everyone seems so caught up and engrossed in their own life and problems that we have all forgotten about those around us who may be worse off. Because when we remember to think about those around us, we find out that our problems aren't that bad after all and that others have it worse. But then I wonder if anyone will ever come back to this stage of sensitivity and caring...?
Comments anyone?

I'm sooooo tired today. I woke up at 530am this morning to get ready to go to the airport to send meiling off. I'm so happy for her!!! But i'll miss her. It's like I've just lost my sister!!! Anyway, i know the lord will take care of her because she is doing His work. Luckily i did not cry. I have that tendency when I'm at the airport and a friend is leaving... On one have I'm happy for her, But on the other hand, I'm kinda sad that she is leaving.
No more saturday night dinners and talks by the river near the esplanade, no more meeting during activities, no more hugs and talks on the phone...
Oh man... just thinking about it is making me cry... And just when i thought i was going to be ok........

Ok got to change subject!!! NOW!!!

But there is nothing else to talk about..

I hate airports!!!!! Soon it will be my turn, and I'm sure I'll cry buckets of tears, which is not what i want. But oh well... It would be good if I went with someone, then it would not be so lonely. But then we are all alone arn't we? That life! We can be a part of a group and yet be alone at the same time. Sad but true. Wish i had a group that i could be a part of and not feel lonely. Wonder if my wish will ever come true?

Phew boy do i stink..... Anyway... It's probably to be expected since i just came back from dinner at marina bay, where all the bbq restaurants are...

It was fun... and a bit sad. Tonight will be the last time i have dinner with Meiling. She will be leaving on friday for a 1 and a half yr mission. That is 18 months.. and if you think about it... 18 months is a long time. And then I'm praying and planning to go to Hawaii.. in April, and who knows when I'll get back.

Oh well... that is life.... we probably all won't meet again untill 10 years from now, I hope.........

I will miss her.... and i don't really want to go to the airport to send her off cos i know i will definately cry... But a promise is a promise! And i promised her and Max that I would be at the airport when they leave...
So I guess i'll just have to control my tears and hope I don't make a fool of myself on friday!!!

How many times do I have to kick myself in the head before I learn my lesson?

Last night i went out for a drink with my friend again. And on the way home i had a major stomachache again. I seem to be getting such stomach problems more and more frequently. I wonder what is going on with my body?

Anyway, i bought back some curry puffs and sardine puffs to eat today, but guess what? My dad ate them.... its alway like that!!!! It's so not fair!!!!! My mom never buys me the curry puffs and then when i bought them myself, they get eaten.... Sigh.......... That's life I suppose.......

Why do people let themselves be used or walked on over and over again? Does anyone ever understand what it means to be equal partners in a relationship?
Do guys have some kind of stronger power over women that is unrecognizable until its too late? If not, then why do women fall into the trap of love and softheartedness for a guy and dig themselves a pit so deep that they are unable to climb out at the end of it?

It is said love can be found at the end of the rainbow. Well so are lepercorns and pots of gold. But as yet, no one has found them, so probably, love would be as elusive and as imaginary as those lepercorns and pots of golds. Or is it?

Its Kinda funny typing a sort of journal online. Never really had a journal or rather its been years since i have written in one.

Today was really interesting, during conference, sitting in front of me was this little boy. He would often repeat things that were said by the leaders who were speaking. It was quite funny really. Anyway, its was really good today. The speakers were good and definately inspired.

This past week was interesting as well. We had a guy in from the UK, and we were bringing him around Singapore. Yesterday we saw him off at the airport, but before that we had dinner at Crystal Jade (his treat hehe...). We even made him eat century eggs, which are a delicacy in Asia but gross food elsewhere. It was fun bringing a guy who has never been to Asia around Singapore, though it was a bit difficult because he was working during the day and would only finish work at about 7p.m.

Anyway, it was a good week. Hope this week will be either better of just as good.